What to write?

I miss you so much little man.  I've tried to write this blog 5 times but every attempt failed.  My brain is so unorganized.  I'm even wondering if it was too early for me to start writing again.  How can I tell others what I am feeling if I can't even express them to myself.  So until I can get my thoughts organized here are a couple of my favorite pictures of J. 

I love how his hand is on the ottoman.

Snuggling with mommy.  He was in a bad mood that
 night so I picked him and he started smiling.  He
let me know that he wanted to me cuddled.